Saturday, 30 September 2023

THE RETURN

by Michelle


Note: This story appeared first in the Treasure Chambers "Together Forever VII - The Truth I Will Always Know" onzine in 2023. 

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It was already dark when he found his way into her apartment… the usual way, of course. He remembered the first time he did it, eight months ago, and he had to smile. The look on her face when she saw him was worth the trouble. It made his pretty miserable day so much better back then.

The apartment had barely changed; the soft pastel tones and elegant decorations oozed a romantic soul. He had to chuckle when he remembered their first encounter - she appeared anything but romantic, more of a choleric. There was something about her though, that made him like her right from the start. Her obvious caring nature, her empathy after he stopped lying to her… and her warm smile. He could never forget that gentle smile which reminded him of his mother’s…

The sound of the door lock clicking to open brought him back to reality, and in a second, he was ready.

Catherine opened the door and reached for the light switch. She walked in, closed the door and secured both its locks. She was just about to throw her briefcase on one of the dinky couches when she jerked, seeing him spread out comfortably on the other couch.
”Your boss makes you work really hard, you should file a complaint,” he said, shaking his head. Then he grinned. “Hello, lady.”

Catherine’s mouth dropped, but then a wide, incredulous smile appeared on her face.
”Tony??”

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The smell of hot cocoa enhanced the cosy feel of the room filled with friendship and warm memories.
”You know, you should really call me next time you want to see me.” Catherine raised her eyebrows. “It would save you the effort of picking my lock every time.”
The boy grinned. “It wouldn’t be the same. Take it as my trademark.”
“I hope you don’t practice on other properties,” she remarked dryly.
“Oh, no, you have the exclusive honour of that. I’ve been a good boy, I promise.”

Catherine couldn’t help but laugh. The boy she and Vincent helped to reunite with his grandparents the year before still held a big place in her heart.
”I must admit I’ve missed you,” she said, smiling.
Tony lowered his eyes shyly. “I’ve missed you too.” He quickly returned to his light-hearted nature. “That’s why I decided to pay a visit.”
”I’m glad… though shouldn’t you be at home with your grandparents now? It’s a bit late for you to be out.”
“No worries, they know where I’ve gone,” Tony reassured her. “I said if I’m not back by ten, they can call the National Guard. I am twelve, and I’m a traveller, you know?"

She chuckled.
Good old Tony. No one can clip his wings...

”So, how have you been doing?” she asked with interest.
“I’ve been great!” the boy exclaimed with excitement. “My grandparents are wonderful. I’ve been helping them where I can, and they love having me around. I love making breakfast for them. Grandma said I cook better than her! Oh, but can you imagine? They want me to start school next term.” He rolled his eyes theatrically. “As if what Grandfather teaches me isn’t enough.”

Catherine laughed, remembering his opinion about the uselessness of school. “He only wants to widen your horizons, give you the best education you can get. I know life teaches you a lot, but school’s not bad either. And you can meet new friends there,” she encouraged him.
”I’ve got friends,” Tony countered. “You, for example.”

She smiled, truly touched somewhere deep inside. Her hand reached for his head, ruffling his dark hair. Never mind that he didn’t like it, she couldn’t help herself. Surprisingly, he didn’t pull away.
”Of course, we are friends,” Catherine agreed proudly, eliciting a beaming smile on his face.
”Speaking of… How is… Vincent?”

Tony’s careful way of asking the question warmed her heart. She was sure the boy never revealed the extraordinary man’s existence to anyone. They both trusted him by letting him in on the secret in the first place.
”He’s fine,” Catherine replied. “I’m sure he’ll be glad to know you are doing well and are happy in your new home.”
”Shame we didn’t get more time to get to know each other better.” There was genuine regret in his voice.
”You never know, maybe you’ll get a chance one day,” she said enigmatically.

Tony sighed, hoping her words would come true. The truth was, he couldn’t forget the leonine man, who was so essential to his successful journey to happiness. Suddenly he remembered something and reached into his backpack, taking out a well-worn book. He showed the cover to Catherine, who smiled warmly, nodding.
”How could I ever forget?” she asked, a fond memory appearing in her mind.

He smiled and opened the volume. “Grandfather had it on his bookshelf, would you believe it?”
A shy and a bit uncertain glance into her eyes told her he was nervous about something, but then he looked down at the page he had just opened and surprised her.

In the High... and Far-Off Times... the Ele-…Elephant, O Best Be-... Beloved, had no... trunk.”
“Tony!” Catherine exclaimed, unable to contain her joy. It was still a bit wobbly, but definitely not too bad after only eight months.
The boy’s face was beaming with pride. “Grandfather has been teaching me to read.”
”That’s wonderful! It will make your start at school much easier,” his friend praised him.

He went silent for a moment, smiling shyly.
”I’ve missed your voice…,” he said then. “I often remember how you read to me back then.”
Catherine smiled, put down her cup, then took the book from his hands and found the page he started reading a while before.

In the High and Far-Off Times the Elephant, O Best Beloved, had no trunk. He had only a blackish, bulgy nose, as big as a boot, that he could wriggle about from side to side, but he couldn’t pick up things with it. But there was one Elephant - and Elephant’s Child - who was so full of ‘satiable curiosity, and that means, he asked ever so many questions…”

Tony made himself comfortable in the corner of the sofa and listened, his heart filled with warm feelings of happiness and contentment.

Catherine read almost the whole story when suddenly she stopped and looked up at the French doors.
”What’s wrong?” Tony asked, mildly alarmed.
“We have a visitor, and I think he’ll be happy to see you again,” she replied with a mysterious smile and stood up, walking over to the door.
When she opened it, her young friend opened his mouth wide, and his eyes lit up.
”Hello, Vincent…”

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They were sitting on the balcony, all together on a blanket and soft cushions on the tiled floor, leaning against the half-wall and catching up as if they had parted only yesterday. Tony sat between the two adults, enjoying the nearness of his special friends, whose company he had the pleasure of enjoying only for a short time back then. Among all the lively talk about his life during the past eight months, he felt something from his early childhood resurfacing, something from the days he shared with his mother and father…

He was excited to see Catherine again, but ever since Vincent’s arrival, he could barely take his eyes off the man with the magical face in a dark cloak. The information that Vincent climbed onto the balcony to the 18th floor just reinforced his admiration for the mysterious man.

“Earth to Tony,” Catherine said cheekily, seeing her friend’s musing look.
“Oh, sorry,” he apologised, mildly embarrassed. “I was just thinking about the past.”
“Memories are not something to apologise for, especially if they are good ones,” Vincent remarked with a small smile.
“I was thinking of the night I saw you for the first time,” Tony stated, his eyes fixed on his friend. “I’ve never seen anyone like you before.”

Vincent chuckled, used to this kind of reaction from children.
”As I told you then, there’s never been anyone like me before,” he said.
“I’m sorry, I don’t mean to be rude,” Tony apologised, embarrassed. “It’s just… How can you even walk down the streets? And where do you live?” He was fascinated.
“I have my cloak, and I have the night,” Vincent replied. “I know every street, every alley, every hidden corner in New York. And because I can’t be seen in daylight, I live Below, in the Tunnels.”

There was no doubt that the boy would keep this knowledge for himself. Of that, the leonine man was sure.
”So that’s why you knew the way to Grandfather’s house back then…” Tony concluded in awe.
”Yes. There are many maps, blueprints of the city. I’ve memorised most of them a long time ago.”

“Cool!” The boy couldn’t suppress his amazement, making Vincent and Catherine chuckle. Then his face grew more serious.
”What is it, Tony?” Catherine asked with care.
”Down there, in the Tunnels… Don’t you feel… lonely? I’m sure I would.”

His concern touched Vincent’s heart, and he smiled.
”Maybe I would… if I was alone,” he remarked. “But I’m surrounded by people who like me and have been my friends ever since I was born. They chose to live Below because the world Above failed them in some way. In the Tunnels, we all live with respect and love for each other, no matter what we look like.”

”It sounds like a perfect place,” Tony mused with awe.
Vincent smiled, shaking his head. “Just as there are no perfect people, there is no perfect place. But we try to live together peacefully, to help each other and live each day to the fullest, with gratitude.”
“How come you don’t live in the tunnels?” The boy turned to Catherine.

For a brief moment, she felt a pang in her heart. Why indeed? She dared to look at Vincent, and his eyes told her he knew what she was thinking. She lowered her eyes shyly, then started to explain.

“I am a Helper, as the Tunnel people call someone who lives Above but knows about them and regularly helps them in various ways.”
”Could I become one too?” Tony was genuinely interested.
”Once you get older, you might very well, if the Tunnel Council agrees to it.”

Tony inadvertently embraced his knees, engrossed in hearing all about the wondrous new world. “How did you learn about the place?” he asked then.
Catherine sighed then chuckled.
”It’s a long story, but almost two years ago, I was attacked. I suffered bad injuries and was left for dead in Central Park… That’s where Vincent found me. He brought me Below to find help. His adoptive father is a doctor. Since then, we’ve been…”

She stopped, hesitating for a second. Her eyes found Vincent, who was watching her intently. Almost-lovers...
”Friends,” she added finally, unable to look away from the blue depths of the man she loved.
”Oh… I see…” Tony remarked with a grin, observing them with keen interest.
Catherine looked into the child’s eyes, seeing comprehension in them.

“Anyway…” She shook her head, trying to change the topic. “The world Below is a very special place, protecting Vincent and the people who live there. Do you understand what I mean, Tony?” she asked carefully.
”Sure,” the boy answered. “You can count on me. I’ll keep it a secret.” He winked at her, then turned back to Vincent. “Grandfather mentioned you once, not long after he welcomed me to the family.
“What did he say?” his friend asked calmly, remembering his brief yet necessary visit to the old man not even a year ago.
”He said a mysterious dark angel visited him the night before the Kris and made him think about justice and second chances.”

Catherine glanced at Vincent, who answered with a gentle smile.
”You are very perceptive, Tony,” he remarked. “Thank you for keeping my secret.”
“I owe you one, It’s the least I can do for you,” the boy replied proudly and leaned back again.

The three friends sat in companionable silence for a few moments, watching the dark evening sky above them. Each immersed in their memories, each blessed to share this moment with each other.
”Will I ever see you again?” Tony asked suddenly, looking at Vincent, with unusual shyness.
”If you wish to,” Vincent replied, smiling. “You know how to find me.”
”Cool,” the boy breathed happily.

“A bit more cocoa before you have to go, Tony?” Catherine asked, getting up, and holding her empty cup.
”Sure, go for it, lady,” he answered, passing her his own cup. The warm smile on his face spoke about his gratitude for much more than a hot drink.


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“Time doesn’t take away from friendship, nor does separation.”

- Tennessee Williams -


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(1+2) Rudyard Kipling: The Elephant's Child, from Just So Stories 

Wednesday, 27 September 2023

THE KEY TO ANY DOOR

by Michelle


Note: Certain dialogue was taken from the episode ‘A Distant Shore’ from the Beauty and the Beast TV series, written by Marie Therese Squerciatti.

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“Ladies and gentlemen, we will land in New York in approximately 25 minutes...”
Catherine shifted nervously in her seat and looked out from the little oval-shaped window into the clear afternoon sky above the sporadic puffy clouds that looked like snowy peaks.

4 days, 2 hours and approximately 37 minutes… That’s how long she had been parted from Vincent since she left for Los Angeles, following a lead on an important counterfeit operation. Gina Barrett, the music showbusiness professional and an important witness for the New York D.A.’s office was sleeping in the seat next to her now. Catherine Chandler was truly a master of her profession.

While she kept busy and focused on looking for Gina during the days in the hot Californian sun, it was the nights as she returned to her hotel room, when she felt lonely, longing for the warm and safe harbour of Vincent’s arms, the soothing sound of his voice, the sensual and caressing look of his sapphire-blue eyes. Although having a large bed for herself, she felt lost in it, cold to the bone, embracing herself, imagining it was his beloved arms keeping her warm on her balcony. She was counting the days until they would see each other again.

How was it possible to feel such longing? She asked herself the same question time and time again and still couldn’t find the best answer. They were no teenagers anymore to feel the youthful excitement of first love. Yet somewhere deep in their minds, after all the perils and near-death moments they had endured, every moment Catherine and Vincent spent in each other’s company felt like it could be their last. In many ways, their love resembled Romeo and Juliet, though the ending was a secret to them. Maybe that was the reason for the longing - the feeling of the urgency to spend every minute together filled meaningfully and to the utmost today because none of them knew what could happen tomorrow.

“Rise and shine, Sleeping Beauty,” Catherine whispered to Gina, smiling. The latter opened her eyes and squinted into the light. “We’ll be landing soon.”
"Thank goodness.” Her companion yawned and straightened up in her seat. “I’m dying to see that boss of yours.” She thought for a moment, then grinned. “Yeah, I bet Joe is the type who wears his pants above his gut.”

Catherine laughed wholeheartedly, shaking her head. The wide smile lingered on her face as she leaned back again.
I’m almost home, Vincent...

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It was already dark when the cab stopped at the curb next to her apartment building. Catherine hastily paid the driver and took her luggage from his hands, thanking him while already running towards the entrance door. She flew through the hallway straight into the lift, fleetingly greeting the concierge. After pushing the button next to number 18, her eyes impatiently roamed the lift door in front of her. She was counting seconds.

He’s waiting; I know he is...

Catherine almost tripped over when she ran out of the lift, reaching her apartment door quicker than anytime before. Fumbling impatiently with the keys to unlock it, her anticipation and excitement rose to enormous heights, her heart rate already elevated as if she had just run for miles. She had barely closed the door, dropping her luggage and keys on the floor, when she ran towards the bedroom. Feeling a shiver of anticipation, she saw his shadow behind the French doors. She removed the last barrier between them by opening the door hastily.

He turned to her, interrupted from his restless pacing on the balcony. For an instant, the time stopped, and they were gazing at each other, almost in disbelief that they were standing in each other’s presence again. But then the hands of time moved on again, and Catherine finally got what she had desired for four days, when she got lost in his embrace, holding him as tight as she could.

“Catherine!” Vincent breathed with a strained voice while inhaling the scent of her silky hair.
”I’m back!” she responded with joy, clinging on to him.
”I felt your return,” he said as if amazed by his own exceptional ability to sense her wherever she was. “Oh, these four days…”
”I know… I know!”

As much as she didn’t want to release him from their embrace, Catherine longed to look into his eyes again. She pulled back, remaining in his arms, though. Her fingers gently traced his right cheek and put aside a golden strand of his hair.

“There was a moment I felt you were in great danger,” Vincent said, visibly distressed. “There was nothing I could do. I wanted desperately to reach out to you!”
“But you did, Vincent,” Catherine interrupted him, stressing each word. “I could feel you watching over me. I heard you call out!”
She paused to let the fact sink in, seeing his astonished expression. “Vincent, you saved me!”

However strong he knew their bond was, he still wondered how much stronger could it still get, if it withstood thousands of miles already.

“Catherine, this…” He shook his head. “… this bond we share, this connection…”
“Yes,” she confirmed, the expression on her face leaving no doubt. “That strong.”

One more intense look into each other’s eyes and they were in a tight embrace again. They cheated death again, three thousand miles apart. How many more times would they? Neither of them could suppress the unspoken question in their minds, but being well aware of their luck, they held on to each other with the verve and passion of survivors. The feel of their bodies clinging together in the mild spring night air was all that mattered at that moment.

“I missed you so much…,” Catherine breathed when they finally pulled apart again. “I could feel you in my heart, but it wasn’t the same, I was all right when focusing on the case, but the rest of the time, Vincent… I felt so lonely… Sometimes it scares me how much I feel bound to you, to your presence, to being close to you every day,” she admitted shyly, while her beloved was watching her quietly but with understanding. “It scares me because I’m afraid I might drive you away…”

“You could never drive me away, Catherine, not with your love. I felt… I feel the same,” he proclaimed, with a hint of a smile. “I know it’s only been four days, and people often need to spend even longer time away from their loved ones but…” His voice trailed off, afraid to confess too much.
“But we are not them.” She smiled, and her look softened again. “We are something that has never been.”
Vincent sighed and buried his head in her shoulder, holding her tight against his solid frame.
”Yes…” he whispered, and Catherine sensed he was smiling.

Gently stroking his hair, she succumbed to the feeling of pure bliss, warming her heart that felt incomplete for four days. He raised his head and placed a kiss on her crown while rocking her softly.
“We are together now; that’s all that matters,” he whispered, and his soothing gravelly baritone affected her with the same intensity as always.

They stood there wordlessly for a few minutes, when Vincent’s rational side (and the bond) spoke again.
”You are tired, Catherine,” he stated.
She lifted her head to look into his eyes again. They were calm again, the distress from before gone for good. 
”Jetlag.” She chuckled softly. “It’s starting to kick in, but I can’t go to bed just yet. Not when I was waiting for this for days...”

The longing in her eyes made him smile and convinced him it was pointless trying to persuade her to rest. If he was honest with himself, he wouldn’t have had the strength anyway. The longing was mutual.

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"There be none of Beauty's daughters
With a magic like thee;
And like music on the waters
Is thy sweet voice to me:
When, as if its sound were causing
The charmed ocean's pausing,
The waves lie still and gleaming<
And the lull'd winds seem dreaming..."
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Vincent lowered the book in his hands and looked at Catherine, comfortably leaning against his arm, resting. He couldn't count all the times they were sitting on the balcony like this, spending precious minutes and hours the night graciously offered them. It was he who read to Catherine most of the time, and he obliged her gladly, knowing how the sound of his voice calmed her soul, especially after a stressful day at work.

And yet the moments when she took the book from his hands and decided to read to him in return were the ones he cherished the most - her voice was like music on the waters to Vincent's ears. His mind travelled back in time to the night when he sat on the same balcony for the first time, insecure, undecided but unable to leave. It was the same night when Catherine took the volume of Great Expectations in her hands and with great enthusiasm read the last chapter to him...

"Keep reading, please," her soft voice brought him back to the present. "I've missed this, very much."
Vincent smiled and gently brushed his cheek against the top of her head. Then he picked up the volume again and continued.

"And the midnight moon is weaving,
Her bright chain o'er the deep;
Whose breast is gently heaving,
As an infant's asleep:
So the spirit bows before thee,
To listen and to adore thee;
With a soft but full emotion,
Like the swell of Summer's ocean..." (2)


Catherine's contented sigh made him smile.
"That was the last one," he stated and sensed her heart sinking a little - she knew he would have to leave soon. The way she nestled closer to him only confirmed it.
"I wish you could stay," Catherine whispered, more to herself than to him.

Vincent's smile faded as she spoke out loud his own thought. Lately, it was getting much harder for him to part from her, whether they met on her balcony of Below, in the Tunnels. Especially since the night she almost drowned in the lake in Stony Point... He shuddered involuntarily at the memory he had been trying to erase for almost three weeks now.

"Vincent, what's wrong?" Catherine lifted her head to see his face in the soft light cast from her bedroom. Once more, Vincent was reminded of how much stronger the Bond was becoming on her side.
"Nothing to trouble you," he replied with a small smile. She didn't seem convinced, though, and when he saw the unasked question in her emerald eyes, he sighed and leaned his head back against the half-wall.
"I was only thinking how I saw here on the night when I almost lost you in the lake."

The words came out unusually quickly as if Vincent wanted to shake them off before he could dwell on them. Catherine sighed, closing her eyes for a moment. However, it wasn't the memory of her traumatic experience in the ice-cold water that resurfaced in her mind. It was the feel of Vincent's unusual lips exploring hers when it was all over...

She opened her eyes again and observed the serious look in Vincent's eyes, thinking about what part of that night to address, before speaking.
"I was so afraid for you," she whispered, her voice betraying her and making him look at her. "Don't get me wrong, I was terrified when he locked me in that car book but..." Her eyes noticed the flicker of rage in his deep-set eyes, and she shook her head. 
"I can't decide when I was more afraid for your life, Vincent, whether when you were trapped in the Maze or in danger of exposure by that... man." She couldn't find words to describe exactly what she thought of her stalker.

"I felt so desperately helpless," Vincent said quietly. "I knew you were being strong for my sake, but Catherine... You can't imagine what it felt like..." With a heavy sigh, he squeezed his eyes shut, leaning his head back against the balcony half-wall.
Oh, I know exactly what it felt like, Catherine thought to herself but only put her hand on his arm.
"Tell me about it," she prompted him gently, suddenly realising they never talked about his own feelings and trauma from that experience, only hers.

There was a moment of silence when Vincent contemplated whether it was appropriate to burden her with his heavy thoughts, but her quiet patience persuaded him that it was. He looked into her caring eyes again.
"Every time you're in danger, fear is the first feeling washing over me, but then I immediately focus on helping you, and the fear steps back into the shadow in my mind. Maybe it's instinct or the rational side of my brain guiding me, I'm not sure. But that night..." He paused and shook his head.

"That night, the level of anxiety and fear I felt was higher than I've ever experienced before, and I couldn't..." He swallowed hard. 
"What couldn't you?" Catherine encouraged him to go on.
"I couldn't help but think, 'maybe this is it... maybe we've pushed luck too far'..." Vincent replied after a bit of hesitation, gutted by the admission of his loss of faith even for a moment.

There was a short moment of silence, both pondering the gravity of his words. Then Catherine straightened herself a bit to face him. Her hand slowly reached for his cheek, forcing him to look into her eyes.
"Luck is a fleeting thing, Vincent; everybody knows it," she started. "It brought us together, spared our lives many times after, but we've always known we can't rely on it to stay with us forever. And it has nothing to do with the fact that I work for the D.A.'s office and you must be invisible to the world Above..."

As countless times before, Vincent was captivated by her determination when she was trying to make something important come across. There was a flicker of flame in her eyes, reflecting the passion with which she spoke every word.
"Life is unpredictable," Catherine continued. "Laughter can turn into tears in minutes. We know that only too well... Life generously gives us the gifts of joy, happiness, family, friendships and love, but it doesn't hesitate to take them away from us at any time, often when we are unprepared and refuse to accept it. But..."

A warm smile reappeared on her gently illuminated face.
"However brief the moments of happiness, or how impossible our dreams may be, it's all worth fighting for and believing in, no matter how difficult the fight. As long as we are together, anything is possible."

Her thumb slowly traced his stubbly cheek until it stopped on the edge of his unusual mouth. Catherine couldn't suppress glancing at it with a look of longing as she remembered the feel of his lips on her own only a few weeks ago.
Don't push... Give him time...

Vincent's eyes never left hers; a smile returned to his face as well now, washing away the traces of anxiety from before. He didn't miss Catherine's inner emotions, their bond wouldn't allow it. However, it didn't scare him off; he appreciated her willingness to wait for him to make to move, even if he wasn't about to make it that night.

"A very little key will open a very heavy door," (3) he quoted, still smiling.
"Yes," Catherine agreed with delight and slowly moved her hand from his cheek to his chest. "Together, we are stronger than you might think, Vincent. Don't ever forget that."

He didn't reply; there was no need to. A gentle kiss on her forehead was sufficient enough and silenced Catherine to blissful contentment as she laid her head on Vincent's chest, enjoying their closeness again. The beaming smile refused to leave her face even when she closed her eyes, slowly but surely succumbing to fatigue and the ever-present dreams of a happy life...

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(1-2) Lord Byron: Stanzas for Music
(3) Charles Dickens: Hunted Down

Monday, 25 September 2023

Come Below Tonight

by Michelle


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“Come Below tonight,” you say, and I follow you without questions. There is no reason why I should not. I trust you with my life.

It may sound unusual from you, as I know the anxiety that follows you at the thought of us staying alone together for the night. In the second year of our journey together, I’m quite familiar with your greatest fear… but I put that thought aside and decide to enjoy every minute more that you allow me to share with you – whatever the outcome.

We walk through the tunnels, dimly lit by the glowing warm light of the torches on the walls, casting dancing shadows, as you lead me to our destination. These tunnels have become my second home – sometimes colder than the deepest winter, sometimes hotter than the sunburnt Washington Heights in blazing July, and yet without a doubt, my home.

“Where are we going?” I ask when I realise I don’t recognise the way.
”To a place where no one will disturb us.” You smile and hold my hand tighter.

I find myself drawn into the familiar feeling of comfort, exhilaration and rising heat. Surprises never cease with you, and I know you are aware of the effect your nearness has on me. It’s not just the Bond that surely speaks volumes and touches your heart. I let myself be guided and forget that tomorrow, this will be only another beautiful memory to add to my very private and personal imaginary library filled with moments shared with you, the man of my dreams, the love of my life…

“We are here,” you suddenly say as you stop and look back at me, with a smile. Your warm hand brushes away a strand of my hair from my face - an unexpected but certainly not unwelcome move that makes my head spin.

You lead me inside a darkened cavern, illuminated by the light of a single candle, impatiently flickering in the slight breeze. The cavern is empty, and as I look at you, slightly confused, I can see the smile on your face - knowing and promising, leaving nothing to chance.

Why are we here?” I ask, but at the same time, it strikes me, that I already know the answer.
“Because time passes too quickly, taking more from us than gifting us. And because with love, anything is possible…”

Your words make me shiver, even before you slowly step closer to me and let your skilled hands travel up my arms in one languid motion - cautiously yet boldly. I close my eyes while exhaling loudly. Is this even possible? Can this truly be happening? With all your fears and inhibitions, how come it suddenly seems so easy, so… natural?

I allow myself to believe… My arms wrap around your neck, probably too eagerly, afraid of losing the incredible gift that I was given. Our heads slowly move forward, driven by the so-long repressed but so-long desired need.
“Catherine…” you whisper hauntingly, and I feel your breath warming my lips when…

I open my eyes… You are gone, and I am trying to break the veil of darkness surrounding me. What has happened?

My hand reaches out for you, but the nothingness robs it of any pleasure. I blink, and then I realise the truth – I am staring at the ceiling above my bed in my apartment. All the excitement, the thrill and anticipation… All of it was nothing but… a dream…

I bury my head in my hands, then turn and embrace my pillow with desperation. I try to fight them, but the tears have their own will.

I knew nothing but shadows and I thought them to be real… (1)

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(1) Oscar Wilde: The Picture of Dorian Gray

Wednesday, 28 June 2023

(Simply) The Best (by Tina Turner & Jimmy Barnes) - Beauty and the Beast fan video

I've literally just discovered this version of this incredible (one of my all-time favourites), so here's my bow not only to this one-of-a-kind relationship but also to the incomparable Tina Turner... <3



Thursday, 8 June 2023

Thirty-five

by Michelle


Dedicated to the wonderful Kevin Barnes for his magical BATB artwork over the years; this story was inspired by his beautiful painting “Thirty-five Years Together”.
Also dedicated to all the writers and creators of the BATB show and its fanfiction writers, who over the 35 years since it first aired have been keeping the dream alive.
And last but not least, dedicated to all the incredible actors on the show
for without them, there would be nothing…

"Blessed are the storytellers, because they can bridge oceans, marshal great forces, inspire and instruct, transcend all limits, transform hearts and minds. They can break down barriers and be the common thread for disparate humanities, reaching across distant borders."

- Ron Perlman -

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ALL QUIET ON THE TUNNEL FRONT

On that April afternoon, the Tunnel leader was sitting in his favourite high-back chair, bending over the small vintage table that had been his companion since he was a child. His eyes, framed by the reading glasses, focused on the thick, black-covered volume that looked like a journal. Usually, he had no trouble reading without glasses, but he had been writing a lot lately, and his eyes felt they needed a little help at times. His fingers, holding his favourite fountain pen, elegantly glided on the paper, immortalising his thoughts on it. Now and then, he looked up with a smile and pondered.

The peaceful silence in the chamber was interrupted by the sound of shuffling feet.
”Vincent!” the word caught up with the sound as Mouse entered the private space of his best friend. In his eagerness, he clumsily dropped a couple of maps he was carrying.

Even after decades, the Tunnel master tinker hadn’t dropped his habit of entering people’s private quarters unexpectedly and in a very audible manner. The only difference was that he didn’t run in anymore, but rather walked in hastily. Not because he couldn’t (despite his mid-50s, Mouse was still in great physical shape) but because his mind was always too occupied with a hundred things and had no time to think about running.

“Come in, please,” Vincent invited him in, smiling, and put down his glasses.

Mouse didn’t need any more encouragement, and after he picked up the maps, he walked over to his friend.
”Found new maps, must show you!” He glanced at the table. “Writing in the journal?” he asked, curiously eyeing the open volume.

The lion-man hesitated for a moment. The Tunnel tinker had never been one for keeping secrets well. However, he decided to answer anyway.
“I’m recollecting memories, events that had happened Below and Above since the day that I met Catherine for the first time, thirty-five years ago.”

“Is Mouse in it, too?” came the eager reply, along with the excited eyes of his friend.
”Of course.” Vincent tilted his head, his mouth twitching with amusement.
”And Jamie, too?”
”Jamie, too,” Vincent confirmed. “How could I omit her amazing journey around the States back then?” he teased.

”Oh…” Mouse shuddered at the memory. “Told her it’s a bad idea; lots of danger for a girl alone out there, but she wouldn’t listen!”
”She wasn’t alone, though, was she?”
”Yeah, with a Helper,” the tinker waved his hand, rolling his eyes. “Still not safe enough,” he said stubbornly.

Vincent chuckled. “However, the journey silenced her long-time craving for adventure. And children love listening to her stories about what she experienced. Her Geography lessons are very popular also because of it.”
It seemed that this argument had some effect on Mouse’s opinion. “Okay, good,” he mused. “Okay, fine! But still better when Jamie helps me with gizmos.”

”Common interests solidify any relationship,” Vincent remarked with amusement. An image from years ago resurfaced from his memory: Mouse desperately trying to repair something, while Jamie running around their chamber, trying to catch their two girls in the act of stealing their father’s tools…

”Anyway,” he continued then, “she certainly has a place in my memories. Her courage - and stubbornness - saved mine and Pascal’s lives once.” His blue eyes grew sad.
”But not Winslow’s,” Mouse remarked quietly.
”No, but it wasn’t her fault,” he whispered. Some cuts leave deep scars, even after many years pass above one’s shoulder. “Sometimes things just… happen.”

The eternal boy adjusted the thin-framed glasses on his nose – decades of endless tinkering left their mark on his eyes, though their steel blue colour was as rich and friendly as it had always been.

”Winslow came to me with a broken tool one day. He said, Mouse, I need a working pickaxe by tomorrow. And when I mean tomorrow, I mean tomorrow. I don’t care what you’re fiddling about with at the moment, whatever crazy invention of yours. I’ll be here the first thing in the morning!
Vincent chuckled at Mouse’s imitation of the grumpy version of his childhood friend.

Tried everything to fix it, no good. Winslow was a hard worker. A very hard worker. Broke many pickaxes, but this one…“ He shook his head, frowning. “Killed it for good. Impossible to repair.”
“What did you do?” Vincent asked, amused.

Mouse put his hands in his trouser pockets, wriggling, his eyes pinned to the ground. “Winslow said he needed a pickaxe by tomorrow, so… Went up top and got him one,” he pouted, still not brave enough to look his best friend in the eyes.
After a few seconds of absolute silence, Vincent’s heartfelt laughter reverberated in the chamber. Mouse finally looked up through his glasses and dared a shy smile. His boyish charm always reappeared every time he smiled.

“Not angry?” the tinker asked with relief.
The man in question put his hand on his friend’s shoulder. “How many years back did this happen, Mouse?” he inquired, raising his eyebrows. When he saw his companion frown as he was trying to figure out the exact number, he nodded and smiled. “Exactly, too many years ago. You’ve learned not to steal since then.”

The master of invention grinned. “Well… as for that…” He pinned his eyes to the ground again.
”All right,” Vincent interrupted him, taken aback. “After proper consideration, I don’t think I need to know everything that happens in these Tunnels.”

He raised himself from the chair, closed the volume on the table and carefully wrapped it into a piece of cloth. Then he put it in the old wooden chest with his (and his children’s) old toys.

“I think it’s the right time to go and find out what delicacies William prepared for dinner today. He promised something special, trying out a new recipe, and you know how proud he is of his cooking,” he said then. “We can pick up Catherine on the way; she’s helping out in the nursery today. And then you can show me the new maps,” he added, leading his slightly embarrassed friend out of the chamber.

※※※※※

THE RETURN OF THE NATIVE

“You wouldn’t believe how I need this two-week break, Vincent,” said Samantha, sharing a table during lunchtime in the Dining Chamber with her friend and former tutor. “I love teaching ballet, but the girls in my class this year are getting more difficult to manage. They would like to become prima ballerinas overnight, and refuse to accept that you have to work really hard to even get a chance to move to the front of the stage from the back line.”

“The world Above moves faster these days,” Vincent replied. “Perhaps they think that progress is a short-distance run as well. It seems life has not taught them a lesson yet.”
“Times have changed, that’s true,” Catherine remarked. “But hard work still pays off. And with a teacher like Samantha, they have surely every chance to reach their goal.” She patted her young friend on her shoulder, smiling.

“Blame it all on Lisa; she was and still is my biggest inspiration in dance,” Samantha stated with a fond smile. “She has been with me all along the way, right from the beginning, when she prepared me for the admission exam at her ballet school. It wasn’t easy, but it was worth it. I can never repay her the time and kindness she has given me over the years.”

“I think Lisa found a new purpose in life after all her troubles back then,” Vincent pondered. “When she opened her own ballet school a few years later, it gave her new motivation. And when you made it into the school, she was very proud of you.” He shook his head, remembering with pride of his own. “Odette…”
”And Odile,” Samantha corrected him teasingly.
”Yes… I never thought anyone could dance more beautifully than Lisa… until I saw you on stage.” He lifted his eyes to his friend with a heartfelt smile.

The astonishment on Samantha’s face warmed his heart. “You never told me that you saw me on stage!” she exclaimed, excited.
Catherine chuckled as Vincent lowered his eyes, smiling. “There is a small observation chamber hidden below the first balcony of the Lincoln Centre,” she explained.
”Oh, Vincent… I wished so badly that you could have been there that night… I’m so happy you got to see it in person!” Samantha cried and ran around the table to embrace him.

When she returned to her chair, her warm hazel eyes were still smiling.
”Where is Geoffrey, by the way?” Catherine asked suddenly.
”Still at home with the kids; they still have school. He will come with them on Thursday afternoon when they start their Easter break. I thought I’d steal a few peaceful moments before the army barges in here,” Samantha replied with a conspiratory wink, making them chuckle. “Besides, he still has a couple of classes at the Art school before they break for Easter, too. By the way…” She reached into her jacket pocket and produced a letter, passing it to Vincent. “For you, from Michael. He left it with me the other week.”

As if stung by a bee, Samantha suddenly jumped out of her chair.
”Oh, sorry, I just remembered I need to see Kipper! I managed to find that rare Hellboy comic his son’s been dreaming about! See you later!” she exclaimed, excited, and ran to the other side of the Dining Chamber, where she spotted her old childhood friend sitting with his family.

”I bet even Superman would be impressed with that speed.” Catherine laughed, watching the former Tunnel child run away. “I’ll never stop being amazed at how Geoffrey can keep up with her.”

Vincent chuckled, and his eyes travelled into the distance for a moment, thinking of the once rather quiet and shy boy, sitting patiently in his classes, hanging on his every word. He remembered the thrill of discovering many years ago that one of his most beloved pupils was not only fond of, but also truly good at drawing. And as Geoffrey grew older, his skills improved significantly, adding special depth and sparkle (one might even say magic) to his portraits, which he loved drawing and later painting the most. Graduating as one of the best students in his year at the Arts Academy, his name soon became a force to be reckoned with in the artistic world of New York. But Geoffrey was never one for great attention and decided on a quiet but happy life - one of an art teacher and a hobby artist. And a family man.

”Tell me,” Catherine said softly, regarding him curiously. “What’s that enigmatic smile about?”
Vincent lowered his eyes and took her hand in his, caressing it with his thumb. “I’m thinking about how even Kristopher would be proud of Geoffrey,” he replied with a knowing smile.

In his mind’s eye, he saw the large canvas with the image of him and his wife from many years ago, hanging on the wall in their chamber. It had been hanging there for 31 years and still bringing as much joy to them as it had when the elusive and mysterious Mr Gentian gifted it to them. And then he thought of another painting, hanging in the bedroom of their brownstone home Above - Kristopher's second gift, from a Halloween night many years ago...

”One day, he’ll maybe get the chance to ask him,” Catherine remarked with a smile. “And as we know Kristopher, that one day might be any day.”
She winked and leaned her head against his shoulder, the same way she had loved doing it since they’d known each other.

※※※※※


OF MEMORIES AND MEN

That afternoon, Vincent found himself alone again in the chamber which had been a huge part of his life for almost seven decades. He took out Michael’s letter from his cloak pocket, put his glasses on and started reading.

Dear Vincent,

I hope you and Catherine are doing fine, as well as everyone else. I know it’s been some time since I have visited Below, but my editor has been chasing me for the past four months - my new book is due to be published in two months, but I am still not happy with it. That’s why I spend most of my days at home, buried in my manuscript. At least I’ve got the laptop to work on. How did Shakespeare manage to do this with only paper and a quill?? Incredible...

Anyway, I’m fine otherwise; a bachelor’s life is not too bad for my profession, as I can dedicate the most time to my writing and hopefully come up with something meaningful. When I write, I’m engrossed in the process way too much to pay attention to anything else.

My publishing house tried to steer me on the thriller path. I politely refused, arguing that I feel more useful and contented in the real-life novel, and that there are already too many Dan Browns out there for the world to need another one. Thankfully, they heard me - for now.

Last week, I bumped into Laura in front of the Argosy bookstore! She was taking a few children to the Central Park Zoo and promised to come and visit you with her family soon. I guess you know that she still teaches at the school for deaf children and loves it. I bet she’s a much better Helper than I’ve been lately, with all the rush around the book...

I must go now; there are still five pages I have to revise today, and the scene I’m working on is a bit... well, dramatic. I love that although many of my novels deal with something that happened in the Tunnels, our world is still safe and unknown. After all, people have the same problems everywhere, whether they live Above or Below.

I miss you all... I promise I’ll catch up with you soon. Please, give my love to Catherine and everyone else.

Be well and see you soon.

                                                                Michael


Vincent took off his glasses with a contented feeling. He folded the letter and put it into the wooden box for keepsakes, where he stored all letters from friends and family. All apart from Catherine’s - those had their own special place… He shook his head, smiling. Was it possible that there was a time he thought he wasn’t worth her love?

Thirty-five years after they had first crossed paths, she was as passionate about him as she was when they fell in love with each other. And yet, there were times when his conviction wavered, and his heart ached immensely. He glanced at the box containing letters again and thought of Michael, who had been only a boy back then, barely an adult. And yet, for a brief moment, he awakened the greatest doubt and painful emotion in Vincent - jealousy. He was the second man ever to do that. Deep inside, Vincent knew that Catherine loved him, but how could his self-doubts and lack of confidence be ignored when he found himself next to a truly fair and (almost) perfect knight? Back then, he was only slowly building up his confidence in matters of the heart. Catherine was helping him to build it. And she was successful in the end, even though she went through her own ordeal, and Lisa was not its only reason…

Vincent thought of that cold day just before Christmas when Lena came to the Tunnels. A girl of the streets, expecting a child, betrayed and belittled by her own world, a lost soul…
She opened her heart to him and offered him her love. The temptation was seemingly there - Lena wasn’t thinking of going back Above and would have gladly shared her life with Vincent, without thinking of the potential consequences. And yet, there was something more powerful preventing him from accepting her offer. It was love… His deep love for Catherine, but also a different kind of love that he felt for Lena - one that doesn’t take advantage of weakness and despair.

Time heals all wounds, they say. And truly, it healed these wounds as well. Moreover, it helped them all to move on with their lives, reaching even higher and finding their happiness: Vincent and Catherine, withstanding the test of time and circumstances and sharing their lives in marriage for over 30 years now; Michael, becoming a successful writer Above who enjoyed and found his purpose in life; and Lena, finding a love returned in the end, with a decent man from the Tunnels, and a new calling in becoming Mary’s help at the nursery, eventually taking it over.

Dear Mary...

Vincent smiled, thinking of the woman who, for the greatest part of his life, occupied the place in his heart that only a mother would have. At 94 years of age, her energy and love for children didn’t seem to have diminished. She was enjoying a happy and peaceful “retirement”, and although missing Father greatly, she put all her remaining love into the youngest generation in the Tunnels even more. Her friends and the children visited her every day; her chamber was always open to everyone, just as it had been since she’d come to live Below those many years ago.

Vincent and Catherine’s chamber was also opened to everyone, and that day was no exception, as the sudden sound of someone rushing to get in interrupted the lion-man’s brooding.
”Oh, you’re here, that’s great!” Jenny exclaimed, trying to catch her breath, with her always-present dazzling smile on her face.
”Jenny, are you all right?” Vincent asked and stood up from his chair.

The woman in question giggled and waved her hand. “Sure! Sometimes I just forget how long these tunnels are and that I’m not 30 anymore,” she explained. “I was rushing because I couldn’t wait to give you and Cathy this.”

Ceremoniously, she presented Vincent with a thick book. He took the volume from her hands, admiring its colourful cover, and his lips extended into a smile when he read the author’s name.
”Fresh from the press. It won’t hit the bookstores until next week, but of course, I got sent the first copy,” Jenny remarked proudly. ”She hasn’t written anything for five years, but apparently, she was just collecting memories.”

Vincent, still smiling, opened the book and noticed the dedication printed on the first page.
To C. and V. for reminding me of all the colours of love and life. Brigit,” he read out loud.
”I knew you’d love it,” Jenny said, her small brown eyes sparkling with thrill. “Where’s Cathy?” she inquired.

“In the nursery; it’s the day when she helps Lena out,” Vincent replied, browsing through the pages of the book in his hands. Then he looked at Jenny with a smile. “We can visit her if you wish. She will be delighted to see this,” he offered.
”Marvellous! I can’t wait to see her reaction; it’s the first time Brigit dedicated a book to you two!”

Jenny’s excitement was contagious, and Vincent had to chuckle when she grabbed him under his arm, dashing him away in the direction of the nursery.
”Oh, my damned knee!” she cried suddenly, making Vincent stop. “I knew that gym class yesterday was a bad idea…” She winced briefly. “It’s all right; I’m fine. Keep going.”

Vincent’s lips twitched with amusement. This was exactly the Jenny Aronson he had met over 30 years ago. She hadn’t changed in the slightest - a living ray of sunshine with only a few more wrinkles and fewer curls than back then, one of the warmest and most generous hearts, and yes… generally, as mad as a hatter.

“I can’t believe she’s been living in that house in the middle of nowhere in Ireland for the last twenty-four years,” Jenny continued her conversation about Brigit O’Donnell.
”Peace has been restored in Ireland,” Vincent remarked. “Brigit has no reasons for fear anymore. She is finally free and happy with her life.”

“I know but… all alone on that farm? Since that tragic affair back then, she has never married again. “
Vincent raised his eyebrows and tilted his head, glancing at his friend. “Not everyone is as lucky as us, Jenny. When you find the love of your life and lose it…” He sighed, remembering his own almost fatal loss once. “Some people can’t bind their heart to another one. It remains bound to the ones they’ve lost.”

“I can understand that,” Jenny knitted her brows, musing. “If that unsuccessful artist of mine, that I call husband, ever left me, I think I would dump all the romantic novels from my bookcase to the nearest bin and never crawl out of my retirement armchair again.” She looked up at him and burst into a laugh, making Vincent chuckle.

”No, honestly, I do know what you mean,” she said then earnestly. “It’s just a bit… sad.”
”Perhaps for us, but Brigit fulfilled her dreams. She travelled the world and was finally able to…, “ he paused and smiled, “touch cities, walk their streets, meet their people and listen to their music… She found peace with herself at last, and that’s all that matters.”

Jenny eyed her friend from head to toe, then shook her head.
”You know, they don’t make them like you anymore.” A mischievous but heartfelt smile decorated her friendly face.
”Do you still pose for your husband only in a bed sheet?” Vincent overlooked her compliment with an amused smile.
”Of course! That’s the advantage of having no kids - no one to barge into the room when you’re only half-decent,” she giggled. “And you know what? It’s really comfortable, especially on hot summer days. You should try it. Ever thought of… contacting Kristopher?” she teased.

Vincent’s deep chuckle extended her wide smile even more before she had the cheek to add, “By the way, I love the beard…”

※※※※※


THE INVISIBLE MEN

Catherine walked into her and Vincent’s private chamber with a spring in her step.
”Jacob will join us in a few days, just before Good Friday. He took extra shifts at the hospital because many doctors have been off sick. But he’ll definitely be with us over Easter. He called me while I was Above visiting with Lin,” she said. “She gave me some more of that jasmine tea we love.”

She took a small paper-wrapped parcel out of her handbag and carefully opened it. Putting it close to her nose, she breathed in the fragrant scent of the tea and offered Vincent to do the same. He followed her and smiled blissfully.
”Lin has a gift for choosing the right drink for everyone and everything,” he stated, contented. “Jacob learned a lot from her medicinal knowledge. He’s been giving several kinds of tea to his patients to ease their pains and other problems.”

Catherine pulled a chair next to her husband and sat down. “He is so devoted to the people he looks after,” she said with deep admiration for their older child.
”Yes,” Vincent agreed proudly. “His work ethic and devotion to his patients remind me of Father. He too would work tirelessly until his patients got better, even at the cost of his own physical exhaustion.”
The memories caught up with Vincent, and he became pensive. A melancholic smile appeared on his face when he glanced at his adoptive father’s old reading glasses in his hand.

“You still miss him, don’t you?” Catherine asked, her eyes full of compassion, remembering her late father-in-law fondly.
“Not a day goes by that I wouldn’t,” he replied softly. “Five years may seem like a long time, and yet, I can still feel his presence, his guidance. With every book I touch, every decision I make at the Council, every memory of him that I cherish…”
“You know I felt the same when my dad died.” She shook her head, smiling incredulously. “It’s been so many years, and still; though I know he’s somewhere else, he’s always with me. And Father will always be with you.

She looked into Vincent’s still clear and warm sapphire-blue eyes and caressed his stubbly cheek. For a brief moment, her fingers absently played with the beard Vincent started growing not long ago and that Jenny admired so ardently. If his face was an image of dignity, kindness and wisdom when he was young, the wrinkles on his forehead, still only a few silver streaks in his long mane and now the beard added something more to the image - the experience of years. And she loved it more than anything.

An amused smile played on her full lips. “Do you think they… hang out… up there?” Suddenly she couldn’t put the uplifting image out of her head.
Vincent chuckled, taking her warm hand in his. “That is something Mouse would say,” he remarked. “But yes, Catherine; I think our fathers do hang out, wherever they are and watch over us. And Father probably chases your father and Peter to play chess whenever he can.”
”And Sebastian performs his magic tricks to distract everyone from Father’s humiliation,” Catherine added with a cheeky grin.

The imagery drove the melancholy away from his eyes and brought a youthful twinkle to them. He laughed and shook his head, putting the glasses into an old leather case. Then he stood up from the chair and held his hand out to his wife, smiling.
“Come; Rebecca is waiting for us.”

Catherine gladly accepted his hand, hardened by long years of hard labour in the Tunnels. She stood up and wrapped her arm around Vincent’s before they walked out of the chamber to meet their old friend.

※※※※※

THE LIGHT ALSO RISES

The spacious chamber of the Tunnel candle-maker was filled to the brim with her creations, as always. Probably even more that day because they were made for a special occasion, which was approaching fast. They formed a white sea around the space because that was their colour. The only detail that made them appear special was a small sprig of rosemary, fastened with a piece of string at the bottom of each of them. The subtle yet undeniable scent of the herb lingered pleasantly in the air.

“Here we are,” Catherine announced their arrival when she and Vincent entered Rebecca’s working space.
“Come in,” she greeted them with a smile, putting a stray, almost white curl away from her forehead. “Your candles are ready.”

Vincent slowly approached the woman who had been his dear friend since they were children and admired the white beauty around them. “Every time I enter this chamber, I’m in awe of the magic that a pair of hands can create,” he said with admiration.
Rebecca’s warm smile widened. “And every time you leave with a candle… or more.” She winked at him.

Lowering his eyes and turning his back to Catherine, Vincent tried to hide an enigmatic smile. However, his wife was engrossed in the beauty around them and didn’t notice their visual encounter.
“I don’t know which of them are my favourite ones,” Catherine mused. “The Winterfest candles are beautiful but so are the Remembrance ones! You are a magician, Rebecca. Every year you make the same ones, and still, they always seem like I’ve never seen them before…”

The candlemaker laughed. “Your candle-making skills are nothing to be ashamed of either; you could easily take over from me. Besides, Narcissa was the only magician in these tunnels. One of the candles will burn in her honour as well this year.”

The cheerful mood faded all of a sudden, and a brief silence descended upon the three friends. A small smile appeared on Vincent’s face when he remembered his last interaction with the spiritual legend of the Tunnels a year earlier…

”You are restless, child,” Narcissa whispered, lying in a bed in the Hospital Chamber. “You shouldn’t be. You have everything you ever dreamed of.”
Vincent smiled and lowered his eyes. “Yes,” he replied simply.
”And yet...” Even at the end of her life, the oracle saw more than meets the eye.
”And yet...” Vincent agreed sadly and took the hand of the old woman gently in his hands.

”I know what is bothering you,” Narcissa said slowly, saving her breath but smiling. “First Father, and soon the crazy woman.” She chuckled in her typical way. “Fear is no good friend, child. It helps sometimes, but sometimes it can break you.”

Vincent’s eyes started burning suddenly. Even though he was pushing on 70, she never stopped calling him as if he was only a boy, the one that had been dear to her heart since their first encounter. After a while, he gathered his words.
”Whenever I was in doubt, when I didn’t know which path to take, what to do, I always had two people I could always turn to for advice - Father and you. Narcissa... who will I turn to now if I find myself at  a crossroad again?”

The genuine sadness in his gravelly, now even deeper voice touched the oracle’s heart. She smiled and squeezed his hands, holding hers.
“Yourself,” she whispered with emotion. “Your Catherine, your children, friends... your heart. You have been doing that for many years already,” she said knowingly, raising her eyebrows, her face radiating genuine pride in her much-loved ‘child’.

For the first time, Vincent smiled; the images of his beloved wife, his sons and many friends appeared in his mind’s eye. “Yes...” came his short reply, when he realised she was right.
”For a wise man, you still think like a boy sometimes,” Narcissa laughed quietly again, then spoke earnestly. “The past is there to teach us. Remember it... cherish it, all of it, the good and the bad... but don’t dwell on it, Vincent. The future is ahead. Keep your mind and heart open. You must keep moving...”

“Vincent?” Catherine touched his arm gently. “Are you all right?”
He smiled, pulling her close and softly kissing her forehead. “I was only… remembering.”

She didn’t have time to ponder on his temporary absent-mindedness because someone else entered Rebecca’s work chamber.
”I see I’ve come at the right time,” Eric remarked cheerfully when he joined them.
Rebecca passed him a small, linen-wrapped package. “White-lily scent. I hope you’ll like it,” she stated, with a softened look.
”Oh, I’m sure Ellie will,” the younger man replied enthusiastically, nodding. Then he noticed the curious expression on Vincent’s and Catherine’s faces. “It would have been her birthday today,” he explained quietly. “Every year, Rebecca makes a special candle for me that I light for Ellie in the evening. It’s her birthday present…”

Memories… How bittersweet they can be. And yet, none of the people in the chamber would have wished to erase the memory of the golden-haired child who left the world way too soon.
Suddenly Eric smiled. ”She used to scold me for not doing my homework on time, chase me around our chamber with a notepad until I sat down and finished it.”

“Ellie would be proud of what you have become,” Vincent praised his former pupil.
Eric chuckled, though. “I’m not sure whether the Tunnel children’s Maths teacher is something she had in mind for me, but I do love it.” He paused and shook his head, amused. “And now I have to chase the children to do their homework!”

The bright laughter of four people echoed in the chamber as the mild scent of rosemary and white lilies in the air filled their senses with memories that would stay with them forever.

※※※※※

OF FRIENDLY BONDAGE

The calm, regular sound of the pipes rhythmically measured the time on that spring morning. Vincent’s feet carried him to the gate at the drainage pipe leading out to Central Park, as for countless times in the past. However, it wasn’t Catherine he was expecting.

He was leaning against the wall, patiently waiting, when a click of the automatic lever opened the gate next to him.
“A welcoming committee; how nice!” Joe exclaimed cheerfully, entering the tunnel behind the gate.
”I’ve got a Council Meeting later this morning, but I didn’t want to miss your visit, so I thought I would at least accompany you on your way to Catherine,” Vincent explained, shaking hands with his friend.

They walked for a while, spending time with a casual conversation when Joe suddenly chuckled.
“I remember the first time I saw you standing at that gate,” he said fondly. “I thought I must have eaten too many chocolate cheese nuggets… I’ve never seen anything more fascinating in my life.” He shook his head.

A humble smile appeared on Vincent’s face - he would have thought of himself as anything but fascinating. Joe’s enthusiasm pleased him, though.
”Your first reaction when you saw me was fascinating too,” he teased.
”Oh yeah? Well, I’m glad I could entertain you and make Radcliffe happy.” Joe grinned.

Vincent chuckled, then stated the obvious. “Always.”

**

“By the way, this is from Edie.” Joe passed a letter to Catherine. Then he reached for his steaming cup of strong coffee.
“Oh, great! We haven’t seen each other for almost a year,” she said. “She’s immaculate at her Helper's duties, but we always miss each other somehow, and phone or webcam is just not the same. I seriously need to get her over here soon, or to our brownstone Above.”
She eagerly opened the envelope before reading aloud.

“Hey, girlfriend!

I bet you won’t guess where I am now – the man of my dreams took me to Las Vegas for our anniversary! Maybe he finally wants to tie the knot after 23 years! Anyway, the kids were beside themselves when they found out. They even bought me a sexy white dress (into which I just about managed to fit), just in case their father would decide that co-habiting and raising children wasn’t enough anymore. You know he’s no Fred Astaire, but check this out: He's taking me for a 'special' dinner tonight! I wonder whether he'll pop the question during the main course or wait until the dessert (you both know I can’t miss a dessert, not after all those years on Diet Coke and salads that had seen better days)... I shall definitely keep you posted!

I hope you're all doing as good as you can. A proper catch-up is long overdue...

Anyway, say hi to that hunk of yours, and don't do anything I wouldn't do, okay?

Much love,

                           Edie”

Catherine couldn’t help but laugh. “That woman better keeps her hands on her own hunk,” she said, raising her eyebrows, “or else I shall be sending her regular deliveries of diet Coke and salad for the rest of her life.”
Her ex-boss and friend threw his arms up. “Radcliffe! Did you really think that once Edie finally finds and keeps a guy, she would stop dreaming of others? Come on!”
”I don’t care if she’s dreaming of others,” Catherine replied with a cheeky smile, “as long as it’s not my man."
Joe grinned again. “If that is all you’re worried about, I can assure you that even if she was, your hunk would rather get exposed on national TV half-naked than exchange you for some other woman.”

They both laughed, and Catherine laid back on the large bed, stretching the tired muscles in her arms and allowing Joe a view of the “domestic and relaxed Cathy”. Sitting in a chair nearby, he smiled, always happy to see her so contented with her life.

”When I gave my private legal practice over to my younger colleagues last year, I thought I’d slow down, read books until my eyes drop, and sleep as long and as often as I wanted,” Catherine said dreamily. “And then I realised that Mission Impossible doesn’t even begin to cover this image. There’s so much to do here that the only time I see a book is in the evening when we read with Vincent. “
She laughed, but Joe saw in her emerald eyes and her still youthful smile that she wouldn’t have traded this life for anything in the world.

The vintage clock in the chamber chimed at 1 p.m., and Joe’s head jerked at the sound.
”I’ve gotta go. I’m picking up Diana from the police station; they asked her for advice in a case,” he said and got up.
Catherine stood up as well, ready to lead him out. “She was always brilliant at her work and gained a great reputation. No wonder they drag her out of retirement now and then.”
”Yeah… I thought we’d finally have a quiet, peaceful life once we both retired. You would think she’d have enough of murderers and psychopaths after all those years, but no, Mrs Maxwell has her own mind, as always,” Joe sighed cluelessly.

Catherine leaned closer to him and patted his arm. “And that’s why you married her,” she added with a beaming smile.
”That’s why she married me,” Joe countered. “Can you believe there was a time when she totally resented even the notion of marriage?” His disbelief amused Catherine.
”Oh, you know that thing about love and mountains.” She winked, making him chuckle (and pleasing his ego).

Suddenly, he turned to her. “By the way, Diana will meet you at the agreed time and place later today. She’s got the thing you wanted.”
Catherine’s face lit up with excitement, and her mouth twitched, for she saw her friend was dying to know what all the secrecy was about. “Perfect, thanks! And don’t worry, Joe. You’ll find out what it was soon enough.”
She ruffled his short, grey hair out of excitement, then put her arm around his shoulder, leading him out of the chamber.

“Gee, thanks; I feel honoured,” he replied with sarcasm in his voice. “I don’t suppose we’re talking about tickets for you and Vincent for a private senior cinema showing of some flick after midnight.”
Catherine pierced his chocolate-brown eyes, raising her eyebrows.
“Joe, I told you a long time ago - no one says ‘flick’ anymore…”

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THE FELLOWSHIP OF THE KING

”I swear there is something magical about that place,” Devin said with fascination, sitting leisurely in Vincent’s chamber.   
”You mean other than Rip van Winkle and the ghosts of Henry Hudson’s men?” Elliot teased and glanced at Vincent with a cheeky smile.
Devin laughed. “Go ahead, just laugh, but you can’t deny that there is a different kind of atmosphere there.”
”Agreed. Catskills do that to you. They pull you in their emotional grip as you gaze over the vast masses of green hills and valleys,” Elliot replied theatrically.
Vincent listened to their conversation with mixed feelings. He wished he could have shared the moment with them.  

“We went there to remember Charles - by the way, thanks for offering to accompany me, Elliot,” Devin continued, “- but it was so much more… It always is; the peace I find there always gives me a new lease of life.” He paused for a moment, then laughed. “Charles had the same effect on me… Those almost two years we lived there when I was looking after him were among the most meaningful ones of my life. I don’t know how to explain it better, but I felt very close to him.”
”Perhaps because you were like him once, in a way,” Vincent pondered. “Wounded, fragile, self-doubting… trying to fit in.”

Devin looked at his brother and nodded with a sad smile. “If Charles was still here, I think I would have been still chopping wood, strolling through the forests and reading Dickens with him.”
“Which would have been a tragic loss to the female world,” Elliot remarked. “Especially for one member of it.” He raised his eyebrows.

Devin’s mood changed immediately. “Regardless of how much I relish in my other half’s company, I must admit it was quite refreshing to spend a few days without a female presence.” He winked, making the other two men chuckle.
”I’m not sure your better half would think the same,” Vincent teased. Even after almost twenty years, it still warmed his heart to see his brother settled, finally having found someone to share his heart with.

”How about you, Elliot?”Devin inquired with interest.
”Oh, you know me.” The retired real estate magnate scratched his immaculately-trimmed silvery beard. “I diplomatically blamed it on a friend’s emergency to get a freedom pass for a few days,” he answered with a grin, making the other two chuckle. Elliot leaned his head back against his chair and sighed. “I must confess there were times, though, when I did miss her. Single life is satisfying in many ways, but nothing compares to the feeling when you wake up to a new day, and your main reason for doing it is lying next to you. ”

Devin absently scratched his greying head, musing. Then he looked at his brother. “And what about you, lion-man?” he teased. “Does Chandler keep you on a leash after all these years?”
Vincent smiled enigmatically, lowering his eyes for a brief moment. His hand touched the pouch hanging around his neck. It was slightly worn after so many years but as meaningful to him as ever.

“She never had to,” he replied. “A marriage is a bond of souls, a bond of trust, in which one appreciates both, one’s own freedom as well as the freedom of the other. We always grant each other space when either of us needs it. Years cannot change that or the strength of our love.”

A deep sigh came from Devin’s direction. “Saint Vincent and his rulebook of love,” he said with a cheeky smile.
”And look how far he’s made it with it,” Elliot remarked, enjoying the fun conversation. His smile faded soon, though. “Love changed my life in so many ways I can’t even count them. Most importantly, it literally saved my life…”
Vincent’s eyes filled with compassion and his heart with sorrow. “Fortune truly stood by your side that day,” he said quietly.

”I often think back on that September day,” his friend mused. “I was supposed to meet a business partner that morning but I was late… In my entire life, I have never been late to any appointment, a business or a personal one, until that day.” Elliot briefly closed his eyes, shaking his head. “That morning, we just… forgot about time for some reason. We had our breakfast, talked for ages about our plans for that night, we laughed…” A gentle smile appeared on his face. “Then I suddenly realised what time it was, that I was already late and rushed out to get a cab. And then, while driving in one, I’ve heard the news on the radio…”

A moment of silence befell the three men as each got lost in their thoughts.
“We lost three of our Helpers in the World Trade Centre that day,” Vincent said quietly. The sadness still lingered in his heart, although many years had passed since. “Too many didn’t have such luck.”
”Yes,” Elliot agreed and sighed. “I owe my life to love.”
He knew enough of the world to know that there is nothing in it better than the faithful service of the heart, (1) Devin quoted with a smile, cheering them up again.

The three friends turned their heads to the chamber entrance, where a sudden sound of feet caught their attention.
”Oh, I’m sorry,” Pascal apologised hastily, then glanced at Vincent. “I only came to tell you that the pipe in the kitchen section is repaired now. Mouse lent me a hand.”

“Thank you, Pascal,” Vincent said, rising from his chair. “Would you like to join us for tea?”
The pipe master smiled but shook his almost bold head. “Thanks, but some other time. That repair held me from the pipe chamber for too long; I need to check if everything is…”
”Still there?” Vincent teased, amusing the other men around him.
”Yes, that too,” his friend replied, lowering his eyes and smiling. Then he nodded to everyone and backed out of the chamber.

”I thought I used to invest too much time into my work, but Pascal…” Elliot remarked.
”Yes,” Vincent agreed, sitting down again and reaching for his teacup, amused. “As Catherine once said, Pascal and his pipes…”

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LOVE’S LABOUR’S FOUND

The day had finally come. Thirty-five years later, he still felt the thrill he had felt the first time. Although, back then, it was fused with fear as well - fear for the life of a woman he had never seen before but who, with the strength and sharpness of a Cupid’s arrow, pierced his heart and became an eternal part of it forever.

The festive dinner at their home Above was a quiet yet magical experience for Vincent and Catherine. They indulged in William’s delicacies with the greatest pleasure, and Catherine had no objections against skipping cooking herself that day.

“He still got it, big time,” she said blissfully, putting down her fork after finishing the luscious cherry cobbler.
“He never lost it,” Vincent remarked with a smile. “Just as the rest of us, William can’t stop the hands of time, but time can’t stop William when he is in his Cooking chamber.”
“I’m amazed I managed to retain my weight over the years. He can create magic from the simplest ingredients,” Catherine gushed about the famous Tunnel chef.
“That’s why he was more than happy to initiate you into the mysteries of his trade all those years ago,” Vincent teased.

Catherine laughed, and with a contented sigh, she leaned back on her chair, closing her eyes. Vincent regarded her with tenderness and a gentle smile: he saw her smiling face, marked by time and ordeals of the past and yet still beautiful and radiant as ever; her emerald eyes glowing with happiness; her long, wavy, blonde-dyed hair, combed to one side and loosely braided. And he felt the gratitude, joy and endless love filling her heart.

Finally, she opened her eyes to him again. She couldn’t get enough of the sight of his older and maybe even more majestic appearance: his long golden mane, interwoven with strands of silver; the soft beard; the wrinkles on his forehead and the fine lines around the eyes, emphasising the years of experiences; the eyes, that were still the brightest, bluest, most honest and gentlest eyes she had ever seen…

“I think it’s time for your present,” she said, and her face lit up with the excitement of a little girl. She left the table but returned quickly, sitting down again and passing a small parcel to her husband. “Happy anniversary, Vincent.”

His eyes twinkled as he opened his present, wrapped in brown paper and tied with a crimson-red ribbon.
“Catherine…,” he breathed, and his eyes got misty at the sight of the title on a vintage edition of the book in his hands. “Great Expectations...

“First edition,” she added proudly, relishing in his joy. “I couldn’t get my hands on one for ages, only the newer editions, but Diana offered to help me and finally found one in some hidden antique book store on Madison Avenue. I was thinking for months about what to give you on this special day. Then I realised that nothing else could say better what these last 35 years have meant to me than the memory of where it all started…”

Whatever Vincent felt at that moment, he couldn’t find the words to express it - there were not enough of them. Especially when he opened the book and read the inscription on the front page:

You are in every line I have ever read...” (2)
                Forever,
                     Catherine

For once, the ultimate master of words was rendered speechless. His smile and the emotion reflected on his face told her everything there was to know, though. He leaned over and pressed a gentle kiss on her lips.
”Thank you…” he whispered then, resting his forehead on hers, still unable to say more.

Catherine wiped a stray tear from her cheek.
“You said you wanted to show me something after dinner,” she said then.
Vincent interrupted their intense eye contact and stood up from the table, reaching out his hand to her. “You will need your coat; it’s a bit cooler there at this time of the day.”

**

They descended under ground, not minding walking hand-in-hand for a good while until they reached their destination. When Catherine finally stepped inside, her face lit up.
”Oh… We haven’t been here for some time…” she gasped, admiring astonished the colourful walls of The Painted Tunnels anew.

Vincent put his arm around her waist as they slowly walked on.
“I know,” he agreed. “We haven’t had much time for anything but reading recently.”
”It’s strange, but it feels as if Elizabeth was still here, waiting somewhere at the end of this tunnel and looking for an empty space to cover with another picture, “ Catherine mused, smiling. “I wonder what she would paint today.”

”Life has given us countless new stories to paint since she’s been gone,” he remarked, his eyes travelling from one image to another. “She had great talent, dedication and passion for bringing stories to life with colours. It was her life, painting the chronicle of our times.”

”I can’t but think of the first time you brought me here,” Catherine recalled a bittersweet memory. “It was a time of great distress that almost separated us…”
”And yet, we’ve endured all the hardship that life has thrown upon us, just like the paintings on these walls,” he said, smiling. “They have cracks here and there, but their stories live on forever.” At that moment, he stopped and pointed at a painting Catherine had never seen before.

”Oh, Vincent!” she cried, and her eyes filled with tears.
Four faces were smiling at them from the concrete wall in front of them: Vincent and Catherine in their younger years with both their children in their arms.

“How??” she couldn’t hide her astonishment, and her fingers traced the outlines of the figures in the painting. “Who painted it? Elizabeth painted a lovely picture of us with Jacob, but she never got round to---”
Vincent chuckled and leaned his head against hers, regarding the image lovingly. “No, she didn’t,” came his enigmatic reply.

Catherine turned to face him, her curiosity piqued to the maximum. With her question in mind, her husband continued.
”Do you remember how Geoffrey asked you about the family photos Nancy did of us years ago? There are only a few but there is one which had all four of us in it…”
”He said he just wanted to look at the light in the photos since it’s different in the Tunnels; for reference for the latest painting he was working on…”

Vincent nodded and tilted his head, immensely enjoying her bewilderment. “He thought we might enjoy a special memory being added to these walls because we are all a part of the Tunnel history.”
”Enjoy?? It’s amazing!” Catherine exclaimed with misty eyes. “Oh… Remind me to scold him for tricking me.” She raised her eyebrows in a pretended insult. “Oh, it’s… beautiful…”

Her excitement warmed his heart, and Vincent decided it was the right time for his turn. He opened the satchel hanging over his shoulder and took out a linen-wrapped parcel.
”A large part of the Tunnel history is embedded in these walls forever, but another large part is merely a shadow of what it truly has been. Therefore…” He passed her the parcel, watching her reaction.

Catherine unwrapped the linen cloth and revealed a brown leather-bound volume that looked like a journal, although it was thicker than his usual journals. She read the title on the cover, and her heart skipped a beat.
Thirty-five years of love...” she whispered with a lump in her throat and traced the handwritten words on the jacket with her fingers. She would have recognised that handwriting in her sleep.
”Vincent…” She opened the book and shed another tear when she saw the first handwritten line on the first page.

”There are three volumes,” he remarked, moved by her reaction. “I left the other two in our chamber, for practical reasons.” He explained with an amused smile. “It took me almost a year to write, and it was one of the most emotional and rewarding experiences I’ve ever had… Everything is in it, our whole journey, our friends, our family…”
His voice was gentle again. His heart was beating for the woman by his side with the same intensity as it had been for the past thirty-five years.

Catherine lowered her eyes, still smiling and slowly turning the pages of the precious gift. Then her bright eyes bore into Vincent’s again.
”And that’s only the beginning,” she whispered, the conviction on her face denying anything else.

When her lips tenderly descended on his, he breathed in her scent, as he had done every time before. He didn’t know whether it was the animal part of himself doing it or a simple feeling of elation and thrill, but he didn’t care. She was there, had been there throughout the most beautiful years of his existence and if life was kind, she would still be there for and with him for many years to come…

**


When they stopped at the entrance to their chamber, the only light breaking through the complete darkness was the soft, dim light coming through the fan window over their bed.
”Don’t be afraid of the dark, Catherine,” Vincent said with care.
”There’s no darkness, Vincent, when you’re with me,” she replied with a dazzling smile and squeezed his hand that held hers.

Distant, yet such vivid memories flashed across his mind: their first Winterfest; Catherine’s hair, fluttering in the wind; the Crystal, resting low on her chest, flashing like fire with every change of light illuminating it; their first dance…

Reluctantly, he let go of her hand, walked inside their private space and lit a candle on the table in the middle of it. Then he lit two more next to the first candle. And then he lit more, everywhere around - on the mantelpiece, shelves, bookcase, nightstand… One by one, with each candle lit, each year of the life they had shared flashed before their eyes like a firefly, warming up the cool spring night air. When Vincent finished, Catherine counted thirty-five candles that Vincent had lit.

“You kept Rebecca busy,” she teased, but her smile was worth a thousand candles to him.
”One candle - one year of our journey,” he explained, making his way back to join her. “Whatever happened, whatever came, we have always had each other. And we’ve always had our friends and family in the Tunnels and Above.”
”For better, for worse… until death do us part,” Catherine added, putting her arms around his waist and gazing into his eyes. “And I’m sure even after…”

There, the truth beyond knowledge again. It had never faded, never failed, always keeping them on the right path.
Vincent kissed her forehead, his lips lingering on the spot for a precious moment, his arms holding her in his safe embrace.

”Shall I read for you now, Catherine?” he asked softly.
”I thought you’d never ask,” came the reply, along with a chuckle.
”Would you like to start Great Expectations again?”
”We shall definitely get to it soon, but I would love you to read your book…”

Now it was his turn to put on a beaming smile. He led her to their bed and took the first volume of his memories before they laid down. They leaned against the headboard, Catherine resting comfortably on his chest. Her eyes were glued to the first page of the volume, admiring every word that Vincent had put on it with precision, care and above all, love.

And as the light of the thirty-five candles around the chamber peacefully flickered in the mild breeze reaching them from the tunnels, his deep, velvety voice gently echoed in the space as he began to read.
Once upon a time in the City of New York, thirty-five years ago, my life has begun...

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(1) Charles Dickens: A Tale Of Two Cities
(2) Charles Dickens: Great Expectations