Saturday, 30 September 2023

THE RETURN

by Michelle


Note: This story appeared first in the Treasure Chambers "Together Forever VII - The Truth I Will Always Know" onzine in 2023. 

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It was already dark when he found his way into her apartment… the usual way, of course. He remembered the first time he did it, eight months ago, and he had to smile. The look on her face when she saw him was worth the trouble. It made his pretty miserable day so much better back then.

The apartment had barely changed; the soft pastel tones and elegant decorations oozed a romantic soul. He had to chuckle when he remembered their first encounter - she appeared anything but romantic, more of a choleric. There was something about her though, that made him like her right from the start. Her obvious caring nature, her empathy after he stopped lying to her… and her warm smile. He could never forget that gentle smile which reminded him of his mother’s…

The sound of the door lock clicking to open brought him back to reality, and in a second, he was ready.

Catherine opened the door and reached for the light switch. She walked in, closed the door and secured both its locks. She was just about to throw her briefcase on one of the dinky couches when she jerked, seeing him spread out comfortably on the other couch.
”Your boss makes you work really hard, you should file a complaint,” he said, shaking his head. Then he grinned. “Hello, lady.”

Catherine’s mouth dropped, but then a wide, incredulous smile appeared on her face.
”Tony??”

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The smell of hot cocoa enhanced the cosy feel of the room filled with friendship and warm memories.
”You know, you should really call me next time you want to see me.” Catherine raised her eyebrows. “It would save you the effort of picking my lock every time.”
The boy grinned. “It wouldn’t be the same. Take it as my trademark.”
“I hope you don’t practice on other properties,” she remarked dryly.
“Oh, no, you have the exclusive honour of that. I’ve been a good boy, I promise.”

Catherine couldn’t help but laugh. The boy she and Vincent helped to reunite with his grandparents the year before still held a big place in her heart.
”I must admit I’ve missed you,” she said, smiling.
Tony lowered his eyes shyly. “I’ve missed you too.” He quickly returned to his light-hearted nature. “That’s why I decided to pay a visit.”
”I’m glad… though shouldn’t you be at home with your grandparents now? It’s a bit late for you to be out.”
“No worries, they know where I’ve gone,” Tony reassured her. “I said if I’m not back by ten, they can call the National Guard. I am twelve, and I’m a traveller, you know?"

She chuckled.
Good old Tony. No one can clip his wings...

”So, how have you been doing?” she asked with interest.
“I’ve been great!” the boy exclaimed with excitement. “My grandparents are wonderful. I’ve been helping them where I can, and they love having me around. I love making breakfast for them. Grandma said I cook better than her! Oh, but can you imagine? They want me to start school next term.” He rolled his eyes theatrically. “As if what Grandfather teaches me isn’t enough.”

Catherine laughed, remembering his opinion about the uselessness of school. “He only wants to widen your horizons, give you the best education you can get. I know life teaches you a lot, but school’s not bad either. And you can meet new friends there,” she encouraged him.
”I’ve got friends,” Tony countered. “You, for example.”

She smiled, truly touched somewhere deep inside. Her hand reached for his head, ruffling his dark hair. Never mind that he didn’t like it, she couldn’t help herself. Surprisingly, he didn’t pull away.
”Of course, we are friends,” Catherine agreed proudly, eliciting a beaming smile on his face.
”Speaking of… How is… Vincent?”

Tony’s careful way of asking the question warmed her heart. She was sure the boy never revealed the extraordinary man’s existence to anyone. They both trusted him by letting him in on the secret in the first place.
”He’s fine,” Catherine replied. “I’m sure he’ll be glad to know you are doing well and are happy in your new home.”
”Shame we didn’t get more time to get to know each other better.” There was genuine regret in his voice.
”You never know, maybe you’ll get a chance one day,” she said enigmatically.

Tony sighed, hoping her words would come true. The truth was, he couldn’t forget the leonine man, who was so essential to his successful journey to happiness. Suddenly he remembered something and reached into his backpack, taking out a well-worn book. He showed the cover to Catherine, who smiled warmly, nodding.
”How could I ever forget?” she asked, a fond memory appearing in her mind.

He smiled and opened the volume. “Grandfather had it on his bookshelf, would you believe it?”
A shy and a bit uncertain glance into her eyes told her he was nervous about something, but then he looked down at the page he had just opened and surprised her.

In the High... and Far-Off Times... the Ele-…Elephant, O Best Be-... Beloved, had no... trunk.”
“Tony!” Catherine exclaimed, unable to contain her joy. It was still a bit wobbly, but definitely not too bad after only eight months.
The boy’s face was beaming with pride. “Grandfather has been teaching me to read.”
”That’s wonderful! It will make your start at school much easier,” his friend praised him.

He went silent for a moment, smiling shyly.
”I’ve missed your voice…,” he said then. “I often remember how you read to me back then.”
Catherine smiled, put down her cup, then took the book from his hands and found the page he started reading a while before.

In the High and Far-Off Times the Elephant, O Best Beloved, had no trunk. He had only a blackish, bulgy nose, as big as a boot, that he could wriggle about from side to side, but he couldn’t pick up things with it. But there was one Elephant - and Elephant’s Child - who was so full of ‘satiable curiosity, and that means, he asked ever so many questions…”

Tony made himself comfortable in the corner of the sofa and listened, his heart filled with warm feelings of happiness and contentment.

Catherine read almost the whole story when suddenly she stopped and looked up at the French doors.
”What’s wrong?” Tony asked, mildly alarmed.
“We have a visitor, and I think he’ll be happy to see you again,” she replied with a mysterious smile and stood up, walking over to the door.
When she opened it, her young friend opened his mouth wide, and his eyes lit up.
”Hello, Vincent…”

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They were sitting on the balcony, all together on a blanket and soft cushions on the tiled floor, leaning against the half-wall and catching up as if they had parted only yesterday. Tony sat between the two adults, enjoying the nearness of his special friends, whose company he had the pleasure of enjoying only for a short time back then. Among all the lively talk about his life during the past eight months, he felt something from his early childhood resurfacing, something from the days he shared with his mother and father…

He was excited to see Catherine again, but ever since Vincent’s arrival, he could barely take his eyes off the man with the magical face in a dark cloak. The information that Vincent climbed onto the balcony to the 18th floor just reinforced his admiration for the mysterious man.

“Earth to Tony,” Catherine said cheekily, seeing her friend’s musing look.
“Oh, sorry,” he apologised, mildly embarrassed. “I was just thinking about the past.”
“Memories are not something to apologise for, especially if they are good ones,” Vincent remarked with a small smile.
“I was thinking of the night I saw you for the first time,” Tony stated, his eyes fixed on his friend. “I’ve never seen anyone like you before.”

Vincent chuckled, used to this kind of reaction from children.
”As I told you then, there’s never been anyone like me before,” he said.
“I’m sorry, I don’t mean to be rude,” Tony apologised, embarrassed. “It’s just… How can you even walk down the streets? And where do you live?” He was fascinated.
“I have my cloak, and I have the night,” Vincent replied. “I know every street, every alley, every hidden corner in New York. And because I can’t be seen in daylight, I live Below, in the Tunnels.”

There was no doubt that the boy would keep this knowledge for himself. Of that, the leonine man was sure.
”So that’s why you knew the way to Grandfather’s house back then…” Tony concluded in awe.
”Yes. There are many maps, blueprints of the city. I’ve memorised most of them a long time ago.”

“Cool!” The boy couldn’t suppress his amazement, making Vincent and Catherine chuckle. Then his face grew more serious.
”What is it, Tony?” Catherine asked with care.
”Down there, in the Tunnels… Don’t you feel… lonely? I’m sure I would.”

His concern touched Vincent’s heart, and he smiled.
”Maybe I would… if I was alone,” he remarked. “But I’m surrounded by people who like me and have been my friends ever since I was born. They chose to live Below because the world Above failed them in some way. In the Tunnels, we all live with respect and love for each other, no matter what we look like.”

”It sounds like a perfect place,” Tony mused with awe.
Vincent smiled, shaking his head. “Just as there are no perfect people, there is no perfect place. But we try to live together peacefully, to help each other and live each day to the fullest, with gratitude.”
“How come you don’t live in the tunnels?” The boy turned to Catherine.

For a brief moment, she felt a pang in her heart. Why indeed? She dared to look at Vincent, and his eyes told her he knew what she was thinking. She lowered her eyes shyly, then started to explain.

“I am a Helper, as the Tunnel people call someone who lives Above but knows about them and regularly helps them in various ways.”
”Could I become one too?” Tony was genuinely interested.
”Once you get older, you might very well, if the Tunnel Council agrees to it.”

Tony inadvertently embraced his knees, engrossed in hearing all about the wondrous new world. “How did you learn about the place?” he asked then.
Catherine sighed then chuckled.
”It’s a long story, but almost two years ago, I was attacked. I suffered bad injuries and was left for dead in Central Park… That’s where Vincent found me. He brought me Below to find help. His adoptive father is a doctor. Since then, we’ve been…”

She stopped, hesitating for a second. Her eyes found Vincent, who was watching her intently. Almost-lovers...
”Friends,” she added finally, unable to look away from the blue depths of the man she loved.
”Oh… I see…” Tony remarked with a grin, observing them with keen interest.
Catherine looked into the child’s eyes, seeing comprehension in them.

“Anyway…” She shook her head, trying to change the topic. “The world Below is a very special place, protecting Vincent and the people who live there. Do you understand what I mean, Tony?” she asked carefully.
”Sure,” the boy answered. “You can count on me. I’ll keep it a secret.” He winked at her, then turned back to Vincent. “Grandfather mentioned you once, not long after he welcomed me to the family.
“What did he say?” his friend asked calmly, remembering his brief yet necessary visit to the old man not even a year ago.
”He said a mysterious dark angel visited him the night before the Kris and made him think about justice and second chances.”

Catherine glanced at Vincent, who answered with a gentle smile.
”You are very perceptive, Tony,” he remarked. “Thank you for keeping my secret.”
“I owe you one, It’s the least I can do for you,” the boy replied proudly and leaned back again.

The three friends sat in companionable silence for a few moments, watching the dark evening sky above them. Each immersed in their memories, each blessed to share this moment with each other.
”Will I ever see you again?” Tony asked suddenly, looking at Vincent, with unusual shyness.
”If you wish to,” Vincent replied, smiling. “You know how to find me.”
”Cool,” the boy breathed happily.

“A bit more cocoa before you have to go, Tony?” Catherine asked, getting up, and holding her empty cup.
”Sure, go for it, lady,” he answered, passing her his own cup. The warm smile on his face spoke about his gratitude for much more than a hot drink.


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“Time doesn’t take away from friendship, nor does separation.”

- Tennessee Williams -


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(1+2) Rudyard Kipling: The Elephant's Child, from Just So Stories 

Wednesday, 27 September 2023

THE KEY TO ANY DOOR

by Michelle


Note: Certain dialogue was taken from the episode ‘A Distant Shore’ from the Beauty and the Beast TV series, written by Marie Therese Squerciatti.

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“Ladies and gentlemen, we will land in New York in approximately 25 minutes...”
Catherine shifted nervously in her seat and looked out from the little oval-shaped window into the clear afternoon sky above the sporadic puffy clouds that looked like snowy peaks.

4 days, 2 hours and approximately 37 minutes… That’s how long she had been parted from Vincent since she left for Los Angeles, following a lead on an important counterfeit operation. Gina Barrett, the music showbusiness professional and an important witness for the New York D.A.’s office was sleeping in the seat next to her now. Catherine Chandler was truly a master of her profession.

While she kept busy and focused on looking for Gina during the days in the hot Californian sun, it was the nights as she returned to her hotel room, when she felt lonely, longing for the warm and safe harbour of Vincent’s arms, the soothing sound of his voice, the sensual and caressing look of his sapphire-blue eyes. Although having a large bed for herself, she felt lost in it, cold to the bone, embracing herself, imagining it was his beloved arms keeping her warm on her balcony. She was counting the days until they would see each other again.

How was it possible to feel such longing? She asked herself the same question time and time again and still couldn’t find the best answer. They were no teenagers anymore to feel the youthful excitement of first love. Yet somewhere deep in their minds, after all the perils and near-death moments they had endured, every moment Catherine and Vincent spent in each other’s company felt like it could be their last. In many ways, their love resembled Romeo and Juliet, though the ending was a secret to them. Maybe that was the reason for the longing - the feeling of the urgency to spend every minute together filled meaningfully and to the utmost today because none of them knew what could happen tomorrow.

“Rise and shine, Sleeping Beauty,” Catherine whispered to Gina, smiling. The latter opened her eyes and squinted into the light. “We’ll be landing soon.”
"Thank goodness.” Her companion yawned and straightened up in her seat. “I’m dying to see that boss of yours.” She thought for a moment, then grinned. “Yeah, I bet Joe is the type who wears his pants above his gut.”

Catherine laughed wholeheartedly, shaking her head. The wide smile lingered on her face as she leaned back again.
I’m almost home, Vincent...

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It was already dark when the cab stopped at the curb next to her apartment building. Catherine hastily paid the driver and took her luggage from his hands, thanking him while already running towards the entrance door. She flew through the hallway straight into the lift, fleetingly greeting the concierge. After pushing the button next to number 18, her eyes impatiently roamed the lift door in front of her. She was counting seconds.

He’s waiting; I know he is...

Catherine almost tripped over when she ran out of the lift, reaching her apartment door quicker than anytime before. Fumbling impatiently with the keys to unlock it, her anticipation and excitement rose to enormous heights, her heart rate already elevated as if she had just run for miles. She had barely closed the door, dropping her luggage and keys on the floor, when she ran towards the bedroom. Feeling a shiver of anticipation, she saw his shadow behind the French doors. She removed the last barrier between them by opening the door hastily.

He turned to her, interrupted from his restless pacing on the balcony. For an instant, the time stopped, and they were gazing at each other, almost in disbelief that they were standing in each other’s presence again. But then the hands of time moved on again, and Catherine finally got what she had desired for four days, when she got lost in his embrace, holding him as tight as she could.

“Catherine!” Vincent breathed with a strained voice while inhaling the scent of her silky hair.
”I’m back!” she responded with joy, clinging on to him.
”I felt your return,” he said as if amazed by his own exceptional ability to sense her wherever she was. “Oh, these four days…”
”I know… I know!”

As much as she didn’t want to release him from their embrace, Catherine longed to look into his eyes again. She pulled back, remaining in his arms, though. Her fingers gently traced his right cheek and put aside a golden strand of his hair.

“There was a moment I felt you were in great danger,” Vincent said, visibly distressed. “There was nothing I could do. I wanted desperately to reach out to you!”
“But you did, Vincent,” Catherine interrupted him, stressing each word. “I could feel you watching over me. I heard you call out!”
She paused to let the fact sink in, seeing his astonished expression. “Vincent, you saved me!”

However strong he knew their bond was, he still wondered how much stronger could it still get, if it withstood thousands of miles already.

“Catherine, this…” He shook his head. “… this bond we share, this connection…”
“Yes,” she confirmed, the expression on her face leaving no doubt. “That strong.”

One more intense look into each other’s eyes and they were in a tight embrace again. They cheated death again, three thousand miles apart. How many more times would they? Neither of them could suppress the unspoken question in their minds, but being well aware of their luck, they held on to each other with the verve and passion of survivors. The feel of their bodies clinging together in the mild spring night air was all that mattered at that moment.

“I missed you so much…,” Catherine breathed when they finally pulled apart again. “I could feel you in my heart, but it wasn’t the same, I was all right when focusing on the case, but the rest of the time, Vincent… I felt so lonely… Sometimes it scares me how much I feel bound to you, to your presence, to being close to you every day,” she admitted shyly, while her beloved was watching her quietly but with understanding. “It scares me because I’m afraid I might drive you away…”

“You could never drive me away, Catherine, not with your love. I felt… I feel the same,” he proclaimed, with a hint of a smile. “I know it’s only been four days, and people often need to spend even longer time away from their loved ones but…” His voice trailed off, afraid to confess too much.
“But we are not them.” She smiled, and her look softened again. “We are something that has never been.”
Vincent sighed and buried his head in her shoulder, holding her tight against his solid frame.
”Yes…” he whispered, and Catherine sensed he was smiling.

Gently stroking his hair, she succumbed to the feeling of pure bliss, warming her heart that felt incomplete for four days. He raised his head and placed a kiss on her crown while rocking her softly.
“We are together now; that’s all that matters,” he whispered, and his soothing gravelly baritone affected her with the same intensity as always.

They stood there wordlessly for a few minutes, when Vincent’s rational side (and the bond) spoke again.
”You are tired, Catherine,” he stated.
She lifted her head to look into his eyes again. They were calm again, the distress from before gone for good. 
”Jetlag.” She chuckled softly. “It’s starting to kick in, but I can’t go to bed just yet. Not when I was waiting for this for days...”

The longing in her eyes made him smile and convinced him it was pointless trying to persuade her to rest. If he was honest with himself, he wouldn’t have had the strength anyway. The longing was mutual.

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"There be none of Beauty's daughters
With a magic like thee;
And like music on the waters
Is thy sweet voice to me:
When, as if its sound were causing
The charmed ocean's pausing,
The waves lie still and gleaming<
And the lull'd winds seem dreaming..."
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Vincent lowered the book in his hands and looked at Catherine, comfortably leaning against his arm, resting. He couldn't count all the times they were sitting on the balcony like this, spending precious minutes and hours the night graciously offered them. It was he who read to Catherine most of the time, and he obliged her gladly, knowing how the sound of his voice calmed her soul, especially after a stressful day at work.

And yet the moments when she took the book from his hands and decided to read to him in return were the ones he cherished the most - her voice was like music on the waters to Vincent's ears. His mind travelled back in time to the night when he sat on the same balcony for the first time, insecure, undecided but unable to leave. It was the same night when Catherine took the volume of Great Expectations in her hands and with great enthusiasm read the last chapter to him...

"Keep reading, please," her soft voice brought him back to the present. "I've missed this, very much."
Vincent smiled and gently brushed his cheek against the top of her head. Then he picked up the volume again and continued.

"And the midnight moon is weaving,
Her bright chain o'er the deep;
Whose breast is gently heaving,
As an infant's asleep:
So the spirit bows before thee,
To listen and to adore thee;
With a soft but full emotion,
Like the swell of Summer's ocean..." (2)


Catherine's contented sigh made him smile.
"That was the last one," he stated and sensed her heart sinking a little - she knew he would have to leave soon. The way she nestled closer to him only confirmed it.
"I wish you could stay," Catherine whispered, more to herself than to him.

Vincent's smile faded as she spoke out loud his own thought. Lately, it was getting much harder for him to part from her, whether they met on her balcony of Below, in the Tunnels. Especially since the night she almost drowned in the lake in Stony Point... He shuddered involuntarily at the memory he had been trying to erase for almost three weeks now.

"Vincent, what's wrong?" Catherine lifted her head to see his face in the soft light cast from her bedroom. Once more, Vincent was reminded of how much stronger the Bond was becoming on her side.
"Nothing to trouble you," he replied with a small smile. She didn't seem convinced, though, and when he saw the unasked question in her emerald eyes, he sighed and leaned his head back against the half-wall.
"I was only thinking how I saw here on the night when I almost lost you in the lake."

The words came out unusually quickly as if Vincent wanted to shake them off before he could dwell on them. Catherine sighed, closing her eyes for a moment. However, it wasn't the memory of her traumatic experience in the ice-cold water that resurfaced in her mind. It was the feel of Vincent's unusual lips exploring hers when it was all over...

She opened her eyes again and observed the serious look in Vincent's eyes, thinking about what part of that night to address, before speaking.
"I was so afraid for you," she whispered, her voice betraying her and making him look at her. "Don't get me wrong, I was terrified when he locked me in that car book but..." Her eyes noticed the flicker of rage in his deep-set eyes, and she shook her head. 
"I can't decide when I was more afraid for your life, Vincent, whether when you were trapped in the Maze or in danger of exposure by that... man." She couldn't find words to describe exactly what she thought of her stalker.

"I felt so desperately helpless," Vincent said quietly. "I knew you were being strong for my sake, but Catherine... You can't imagine what it felt like..." With a heavy sigh, he squeezed his eyes shut, leaning his head back against the balcony half-wall.
Oh, I know exactly what it felt like, Catherine thought to herself but only put her hand on his arm.
"Tell me about it," she prompted him gently, suddenly realising they never talked about his own feelings and trauma from that experience, only hers.

There was a moment of silence when Vincent contemplated whether it was appropriate to burden her with his heavy thoughts, but her quiet patience persuaded him that it was. He looked into her caring eyes again.
"Every time you're in danger, fear is the first feeling washing over me, but then I immediately focus on helping you, and the fear steps back into the shadow in my mind. Maybe it's instinct or the rational side of my brain guiding me, I'm not sure. But that night..." He paused and shook his head.

"That night, the level of anxiety and fear I felt was higher than I've ever experienced before, and I couldn't..." He swallowed hard. 
"What couldn't you?" Catherine encouraged him to go on.
"I couldn't help but think, 'maybe this is it... maybe we've pushed luck too far'..." Vincent replied after a bit of hesitation, gutted by the admission of his loss of faith even for a moment.

There was a short moment of silence, both pondering the gravity of his words. Then Catherine straightened herself a bit to face him. Her hand slowly reached for his cheek, forcing him to look into her eyes.
"Luck is a fleeting thing, Vincent; everybody knows it," she started. "It brought us together, spared our lives many times after, but we've always known we can't rely on it to stay with us forever. And it has nothing to do with the fact that I work for the D.A.'s office and you must be invisible to the world Above..."

As countless times before, Vincent was captivated by her determination when she was trying to make something important come across. There was a flicker of flame in her eyes, reflecting the passion with which she spoke every word.
"Life is unpredictable," Catherine continued. "Laughter can turn into tears in minutes. We know that only too well... Life generously gives us the gifts of joy, happiness, family, friendships and love, but it doesn't hesitate to take them away from us at any time, often when we are unprepared and refuse to accept it. But..."

A warm smile reappeared on her gently illuminated face.
"However brief the moments of happiness, or how impossible our dreams may be, it's all worth fighting for and believing in, no matter how difficult the fight. As long as we are together, anything is possible."

Her thumb slowly traced his stubbly cheek until it stopped on the edge of his unusual mouth. Catherine couldn't suppress glancing at it with a look of longing as she remembered the feel of his lips on her own only a few weeks ago.
Don't push... Give him time...

Vincent's eyes never left hers; a smile returned to his face as well now, washing away the traces of anxiety from before. He didn't miss Catherine's inner emotions, their bond wouldn't allow it. However, it didn't scare him off; he appreciated her willingness to wait for him to make to move, even if he wasn't about to make it that night.

"A very little key will open a very heavy door," (3) he quoted, still smiling.
"Yes," Catherine agreed with delight and slowly moved her hand from his cheek to his chest. "Together, we are stronger than you might think, Vincent. Don't ever forget that."

He didn't reply; there was no need to. A gentle kiss on her forehead was sufficient enough and silenced Catherine to blissful contentment as she laid her head on Vincent's chest, enjoying their closeness again. The beaming smile refused to leave her face even when she closed her eyes, slowly but surely succumbing to fatigue and the ever-present dreams of a happy life...

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(1-2) Lord Byron: Stanzas for Music
(3) Charles Dickens: Hunted Down

Monday, 25 September 2023

Come Below Tonight

by Michelle


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“Come Below tonight,” you say, and I follow you without questions. There is no reason why I should not. I trust you with my life.

It may sound unusual from you, as I know the anxiety that follows you at the thought of us staying alone together for the night. In the second year of our journey together, I’m quite familiar with your greatest fear… but I put that thought aside and decide to enjoy every minute more that you allow me to share with you – whatever the outcome.

We walk through the tunnels, dimly lit by the glowing warm light of the torches on the walls, casting dancing shadows, as you lead me to our destination. These tunnels have become my second home – sometimes colder than the deepest winter, sometimes hotter than the sunburnt Washington Heights in blazing July, and yet without a doubt, my home.

“Where are we going?” I ask when I realise I don’t recognise the way.
”To a place where no one will disturb us.” You smile and hold my hand tighter.

I find myself drawn into the familiar feeling of comfort, exhilaration and rising heat. Surprises never cease with you, and I know you are aware of the effect your nearness has on me. It’s not just the Bond that surely speaks volumes and touches your heart. I let myself be guided and forget that tomorrow, this will be only another beautiful memory to add to my very private and personal imaginary library filled with moments shared with you, the man of my dreams, the love of my life…

“We are here,” you suddenly say as you stop and look back at me, with a smile. Your warm hand brushes away a strand of my hair from my face - an unexpected but certainly not unwelcome move that makes my head spin.

You lead me inside a darkened cavern, illuminated by the light of a single candle, impatiently flickering in the slight breeze. The cavern is empty, and as I look at you, slightly confused, I can see the smile on your face - knowing and promising, leaving nothing to chance.

Why are we here?” I ask, but at the same time, it strikes me, that I already know the answer.
“Because time passes too quickly, taking more from us than gifting us. And because with love, anything is possible…”

Your words make me shiver, even before you slowly step closer to me and let your skilled hands travel up my arms in one languid motion - cautiously yet boldly. I close my eyes while exhaling loudly. Is this even possible? Can this truly be happening? With all your fears and inhibitions, how come it suddenly seems so easy, so… natural?

I allow myself to believe… My arms wrap around your neck, probably too eagerly, afraid of losing the incredible gift that I was given. Our heads slowly move forward, driven by the so-long repressed but so-long desired need.
“Catherine…” you whisper hauntingly, and I feel your breath warming my lips when…

I open my eyes… You are gone, and I am trying to break the veil of darkness surrounding me. What has happened?

My hand reaches out for you, but the nothingness robs it of any pleasure. I blink, and then I realise the truth – I am staring at the ceiling above my bed in my apartment. All the excitement, the thrill and anticipation… All of it was nothing but… a dream…

I bury my head in my hands, then turn and embrace my pillow with desperation. I try to fight them, but the tears have their own will.

I knew nothing but shadows and I thought them to be real… (1)

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(1) Oscar Wilde: The Picture of Dorian Gray